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Hello. I hope you can see me? I have always wanted to get your attention, talk to you. But I was afraid that you could not see me, that you would not hear me, or that the words won't come out and I'll look like a fool. It took me so long to get here today. I finally had to push myself when it seemed the perfect time would never come. I did not even know if I would be able to say anything, I just knew that I was tired of waiting.

Hello. Can you see me now? Uhmmmm. Have you ever sat by the window on a rainy day and felt yourself as if you were not really there? As if you were just someone's imagination, a puff of thought that will be quickly blown away and forgotten forever. As if the rain could wash away every trace of your existence and no one would even notice. Have you ever? It is raining now, but I don't want it to stop just yet. I want it to wash me. I have to something to say to the rain.

He knew me. The rain, I mean. He knew I always sat by the window and watch whenever he's around. He alone knew me when nobody else did. And he took advantage of me. He used me to feed his ego. Oh, he told me scary stories about the danger of venturing out. He threatened me in his fatherly voice and I soaked it all up. He told me that no one cared about me. I was simply matter that had weight and occupied space. He said that some of us were built to ever look out the window but never go out. He said I would be a fool to leave my comfort zone. I wondered how so, but I believed him.

The rain tricked me out of my profitable years. But never again. I have discovered the truth, there's no holding back anymore. The rainy days are over, the sun has come to lick off any remembrance of the past. I am afraid, but I am ready to test myself. I can do this ,I believe I can. Never again will I sit hidden away behind the window when I could be out there in the sun having the days of my life. Never again!

I have faith. I know I'll be fine. These wounds will heal and become my beautiful story. I am doing this for myself and for you.

Hello. Can you see me in this light?

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